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Purpose?

Purpose?

Do you not think that the World in general, in the past few years and particularly in 2020 has just gone a little crazy? – I mean what the fuck are we all doing here? What is the point if we’re just going to constantly and consistently hurt each other? America… On a day where the outstanding achievement of science and technology came together to deliver astronauts to the ISS from American soil for the first time in x years, on…

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Social Prescribing

Social Prescribing

When did we decide that the best cure for something is to force the application of it? – Isn’t that some sort of ye-oldie punishment that used to happen in the dark ages? I think of that whenever I see advice for people suffering with mental health issues for example. – I know I talk a lot about mental health issues, but I really don’t care, this is my blog you are reading and its an important topic to me,…

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Mental Health & CoVID19

Mental Health & CoVID19

Let’s be truthful here for a moment, when people think of Mental Health, they still find it hard and taboo to talk about. No matter how many fundraising campaigns are carried our or how many mainstream celebrities speak out about Mental Health and the importance of talking about it, it is still going to be considered the dark shadow of the underbelly of society. That’s not to say we shouldn’t be talking about it. We should be. More than we…

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“You can’t ever reach perfection, but you can believe in an asymptote toward which you are ceaselessly striving.” ― Paul Kalanithi, When Breath Becomes Air We as a species haven’t yet achieved our greatest goal, but when we do I am positive we can call it our greatest achievement. [ms_label background_color=”#70d628″ ]HAN: Uncertain[/ms_label]

Blogger Contradicts Blog Title

Blogger Contradicts Blog Title

Guess We Just Begin Again – You might have realised after all these years this phrase is somewhat important to me, it is, after all what I called this at-times, very personal blog. I get asked “why do you publish a personal blog?”, “why do you put the effort in if nobody reads it?”. The answer to both is personal. I write because it brings to me some essence of relief and release. Sometimes at its most basic form, writing…

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What Anxiety Has Done

What Anxiety Has Done

I see a lot of articles online about depression and anxiety, and some of them grab my interest enough to read them. I usually stay away from the toxic kind of ’11 reasons why’ and so on type posts. But the focus of this article, is another article which I read and has stuck with me for the past few weeks. So I thought I would go through some of its points and give my own thoughts and feelings on…

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#fuckanxiety #fuckimsomnia #fuckdepression #fuckstress #OkNotToBeOk | #MentalHealth [ms_label background_color=”#70d628″ ]HAN: Lonely[/ms_label]

How.

How.

Please take a look if it’s judgement versus instinct, How do I feel? When my feelings don’t even work? [ms_label background_color=”#70d628″ ]HAN: Confused[/ms_label]

Life.

Life.

You only have one life. Keep it simple: miss someone – call them | love someone – tell them | have questions – ask | want something – try | like something – share it | hate something – ignore it – Unknown [ms_label background_color=”#70d628″ ]HAN: Desolate[/ms_label]

205 Days

205 Days

This has been the first Christmas period without my Mum. It’s been shit. It’s been more or less as I expected it to be. We have done our best to enjoy the days surrounding Christmas. We had a lovely Christmas dinner on the day itself and we exchanged presents. Family has been visiting and visited for the most part, and we’ve had a few drinks. But in the night times, when all the activity is over, that is when the…

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Hell.

Hell.

“How little do doctors understand the hell’s through which we put patients” – Paul Kalanithi [ms_label background_color=”#70d628″ ]HAN: Melancholy[/ms_label] While I cannot wait for 2019 to be over, I see no reason to look forward to anything in 2020. There is literally no point anymore.

You.

You.

Have you ever missed someone so much that all you want to do is to speak to them, but speaking to them hurts like hell because you miss them so much. So you just don’t speak to them & that hurts you too? – Unknown [ms_label background_color=”#70d628″ ]HAN: Lonesome[/ms_label] Open Your Eyes (again).

137 Days…

137 Days…

This post on its own will seem, published now, completely out of place. The reason for this is there has been a period of time now that has passed between the events of the 6th June 2019 and the weeks that lead up to that event. These things are still, too hurtful, too personal for me to publish. But I am not ashamed of sharing them, and when I find the right medium to let those thoughts out, I will…

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First Do No Harm

First Do No Harm

I haven’t written here in a long time. So long in fact there are draft posts from before this date awaiting publication. But today I feel the need to post about my Mother. Two years almost to the day where I reported a failure in the duty of care of NHS staff at one hospital, we find ourselves caught right up in the middle of another banner-day for medical care in the UK. After a 2:30pm admission to hospital on…

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The End of An(other) Era

The End of An(other) Era

As of today, March 29th 2019 I have now officially resigned my position of employment with Amazon Logistics UK Ltd. There are parts relating to my resignation that I cannot talk about but lets face it, exactly who’s interested anyway. For me this is another ‘end of an era’, which I think personally has come far too soon, but at the end of it, I had very little choice. My Amazon ‘career’ lasted just two years and five months. Much…

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Dr Shit Missed Pneumonia

Dr Shit Missed Pneumonia

On this site which houses my personal blog, I have a bunch of posts kept in draft format, from times when I felt like I needed to blog, but never found the time to write and publish. This is just one of those many posts. I’ll come back and cover this in more detail if and when the time and feeling takes me. But, this was supposed to be a post wrapping up the year 2018. Now, most of the…

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This.

This.

Like what you like. Love who you love. Revel in it without apology. They can’t stop you. – Lin-Manuel Miranda [ms_label background_color=”#70d628″ ]HAN: Trepidation[/ms_label] Need’s no further explanation.

Busy Times, Busy Minds

Busy Times, Busy Minds

It’s been on my to-do lists for weeks to publish a post here. There is too much going on at the moment to gather my thoughts into a singular blog post. After the 14th November (at some point) I will return with some kind of life update. It won’t make for pleasant reading. I am sure. But as nobody reads this anyway, it won’t bother you. Post to GWJBA – Tick.

Open Your Eyes

Open Your Eyes

 My generation never got the future it was promised… Thirty-five years later, cars, air travel is exactly the same. We don’t even have the Concorde anymore. Technology stopped. Where’s my jetpack, my colonies on the Moon? Where’s my flying car? Leo McGarry [ms_label background_color=”#70d628″ ]HAN: Frustration[/ms_label] Two years ago today, my world changed. In the two years since that awful day, there have been victories and defeats. Mostly defeats it feels like. Except for the one victory that overrules them all….

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Fine.

Fine.

A year ago today, this image was posted to my Facebook timeline with the quote ‘My life right now’: Yesterday, the car broke down on the motorway. Traveling at 70 in lane 3 I get a warning light pop up, next the car cuts out… at 70. Scary times. I wrestle the car back towards the hard shoulder and it restarts. I drive for another 100 metres or so and I get the warning light and constant beeps. “STOP: Oil…

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