Cancer is a Killer. Fairly obvious statement there. Of course it is a killer, there is no known cure. But as bad as it is, it doesn’t just kill it’s host, it kills hopes and dreams, plans and activities. It kills the very fabric of hope, thoughts, feelings. It kills time. It removes any open opportunity and will always be sitting there waiting to strike with a new issue to solve or problem to sort. Cancer is a killer, and…
What a day is has been. It feels like its been one long day from the last post here to this one. On the surface nothing has changed, however as is often the case, it is below the surface that major changes have occurred. There is too much to cover here in a single post and I really cannot go back now. I’ll cover it all elsewhere. If you want to see it you’ll find a way too find it….
It’s November. First of all how did that happen? As always so much has happened over the previous months that I’ve not posted for. There is a reason (isn’t there always). There are some things happening to me and my family now that are simply too painful to talk about, or type about. I will do, at some point I will share these details. Probably not here but I will do. I don’t know when that will be. Every time I…
To my poor unloved blog, It has been so long since I have shown you love and posted to you but now I am back again. I want to go back in time a little with this post and cover in detail the last 4-5 months of my life. I know I have touched on things from this period in previous posts but I was then unable to go into any detail whatsoever. So here we go. We start back…
Where to start? – So many of my posts here start with those three words. That’s only because it’s usually so long between posts here that I can throw any kind of ‘regular’ label out of the window.
As you are reading this post I have (or will have) started a new chapter in my adventure through life.
Well I’ve been posting here once a month for a while it seems. This isn’t intentional, it’s just what seems to be happening at the moment.
I really have no idea what I am doing any more. Did I ever truly know? Was there ever a clearer path than darkness to follow?
So much to say that there is not enough time to say it. Things did get difficult from the 14th February for many many reasons. Here we are, almost a month later and I am still here. Somehow. I am still here.
Times are going to get very hard over the next few weeks. I’ll apologise in advance.
Insanity – Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results / Grind – To perform repetitive actions over and over to achieve a goal Anyone who says that Job Hunting is easy probably hasn’t had to experience the process and grind of the Job Seekers Circuit. Those who claim ‘there are tones of jobs available’ are possibly deluded or perhaps slightly strange inside. It’s totally true that there are jobs available out there for the taking.
I’m stuck. Here. Physically. Mentally. I try to leave to make plans to ‘get myself out there’ and what happens? I’m pulled right back in. I write here when I feel the need to, but right now my need is greater than this blog.
The following post is about a personal issue. It is a long post, an unedited thought-stream from my mind as of 10/1/16. I’ve been keeping all this in for far too long, and now as I can read it back here, I can let go of keeping it all inside. I make no apology for any of the following.
Where to even start with this one? Yet again it’s been a long time since I’ve had a moment to sit and write anything down outside of my personal notes. There has been a lot of things going on with me lately. So much so that even choosing a starting point becomes a challenge.
I guess I can go ahead and post this now, this was my experiences and feelings from a very wet day back in July of this year. I’ve changed some details and specifics in the story below as I have signed an NDA, other than those details this remains unchanged from the 24th July 2015.
Time heals all wounds. – Does it? Really? It’s time my friends for me to load up this website and add an entry. It’s been almost a month which by my standards is not a very long time. However I feel the need to write again and it’s not going to be a post that makes a lot of sense. There is a lot to catch up on so let’s dive in.
A heart that’s full up like a landfill… Where does it change? When should the change be expected? What has to fall in place in order for it to happen? Life lately has been incredibly testing, and it seems no amount of luck, time or effort is getting the job done. So I find myself questioning and requesting (just for a while) that Life can pause itself. Things need to stop turning in order for me to climb back on top…
In July of 2011, two friends and I were involved in a car accident. Nobody else was involved, unless you count some rain, some diesel, a fence, angry sheep and a straight road. Yes it was me, I very slowly lost control and crashed through a farmers field. There was nobody else about. Just me, my car, my two friends and a field with some nasty rocks, sheep and what we would later discover to be quite a ridge.
Wake up, don’t feel good but force myself in. In to the unknown as changes come today. Waiting. Waiting. Sudden change and into something new. Mixed feelings. Thrown in to the deep end of the shallow pool. Somehow still standing.
The true genius shudders at incompleteness – and usually prefers silence to saying something which is not everything it should be. Edgar Allan Poe I’ve found myself reading a little more these past few days. I guess reading about reading at least. I’ve always tried to write myself and although I can and have, what I struggle with is natural sounding dialogue. Which can be a bit of a problem. So I’ve been studying a little on how some of…