Well that was one hell of a shitty day. At the start of today I thought that all of my writing and updating yesterday was a big waste of time. I woke up with aspirations to get long-term things a...
Continue reading...Stuck (again)
We gotta talk health. Regretless decision, failing health and… Depression. It’s been a tumultuous couple of years for me, my health and general progress / wellbeing. Let’s go back to say… February 2015.. Bare with me. Up until February 2015 I...
Continue reading...What If?
What If? – That fucking question has followed me around since a brainstorming session in a 3rd Year Media Technology module seminar. It was decided by unimaginative people to be the ‘theme’ of an Exhibition & Performance module to tell...
Continue reading...#fuckdepression
It was a Sunday night in my spiritual hometown of London where a then-friend and I attended a gig of a group we both shared an interest for. The group was Linkin Park and the venue was Wembley Arena. It...
Continue reading...Clearing the Backlog
Once again it has been far too long since I have been here. There are many reasons for this, not least being is that I struggle to be able to write right now. There is a lot to be said,...
Continue reading...Heartbroken.
Sometimes solutions arn’t so simple, sometimes goodbye’s the only way. — Linkin Park [ms_label background_color=”#70d628″ ]HAN: Heartbroken[/ms_label] #RIPChester Your light lit up the darkest of places and the darkest of spaces within my life. I am completely heartbroken for your...
Continue reading...When Breath Becomes Air
Sorry, two Cancer related posts in a row, and just days after one another. Till I have somewhere else for this to go, it goes here. In March 2017 I underwent a small operation on my left knee to fix...
Continue reading...Cancer Is A Killer
Cancer is a Killer. Fairly obvious statement there. Of course it is a killer, there is no known cure. But as bad as it is, it doesn’t just kill it’s host, it kills hopes and dreams, plans and activities. It...
Continue reading...3 Months
What a day is has been. It feels like its been one long day from the last post here to this one. On the surface nothing has changed, however as is often the case, it is below the surface that...
Continue reading...Work.
Nothing will work unless you do. — Maya Angelou [ms_label background_color=”#70d628″ ]HAN: Hopeful yet Reflective[/ms_label] Nothing comes easy. Would we feel any benefit if it did? Would we feel it was ‘work’? Should things be easy? Should things be easier...
Continue reading...HAN.
You never have to change anything you got up in the middle of the night to write. – Saul Bellow HAN – A Korean word that has no literal English translation except to say that it is a State of Soul;...
Continue reading...Hope is overrated
It’s November. First of all how did that happen? As always so much has happened over the previous months that I’ve not posted for. There is a reason (isn’t there always). There are some things happening to me and my family...
Continue reading...Going Back to Move On
To my poor unloved blog, It has been so long since I have shown you love and posted to you but now I am back again. I want to go back in time a little with this post and cover...
Continue reading...Liverpool Floods
Where to start? – So many of my posts here start with those three words. That’s only because it’s usually so long between posts here that I can throw any kind of ‘regular’ label out of the window.
Continue reading...We do just.. Begin Again
As you are reading this post I have (or will have) started a new chapter in my adventure through life.
Continue reading...May
Well I’ve been posting here once a month for a while it seems. This isn’t intentional, it’s just what seems to be happening at the moment.
Continue reading...First Runner-up
I really have no idea what I am doing any more. Did I ever truly know? Was there ever a clearer path than darkness to follow?
Continue reading...Becoming as clear as blackness
So much to say that there is not enough time to say it. Things did get difficult from the 14th February for many many reasons. Here we are, almost a month later and I am still here. Somehow. I am...
Continue reading...Sorry
Times are going to get very hard over the next few weeks. I’ll apologise in advance.
Continue reading...The Grind of Broken Dreams
Insanity – Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results / Grind – To perform repetitive actions over and over to achieve a goal Anyone who says that Job Hunting is easy probably hasn’t had to...
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