Edit: I had this post all ready to go in time for new years eve, but received some news that.. for me changed the way I was feeling, so I pulled it from it’s scheduled publication. I’ve had a little more time to process now and I think I am ready to let this out out into the world. Sorry for the delay!
Another new year’s eve is almost upon us, which means it’s time to draw 2024 to a close. There’s been some different things that have happened during 2024 that is for sure. Some good, some not so good. I’ve been to around 12 events during the year two of which were trips down to Eastbourne to see and meet friends for future happenings and one of the final ones included a holiday, my first in 20+ years or so! (I’ll not be shutting up about that for a good while yet, when I do start talking about it, somewhere). I am now still in the relaxing and recovery phase after returning from that very special event.
It was returning, straight back to Riverside then straight into the Christmas build up.. It’s all left me feeling very much worn out and these ’empty’ days between Christmas and New Year.. the 27th, 28th and 29th have all been extremely odd to me. Insomnia has returned and basically put, I simply cannot get to sleep when I try to at night. So, trying something different tonight, as in I’ve had a nap on the sofa earlier on, and now I am just sitting at the computer, working away at the list of things I wanted to use these three days to get done now inside of a day. But I am going to try to do a full 24 hours, to try to somehow reset my body clock, as after jetlag, then the non-stop Pre-Christmas rush.. I need a reset!
Going back further into 2024, there have been some real gems of progress this year.. For example through the help and assistance of friends, getting myself setup with a car I can use and go drive in again. That’s been a bit of a game changer. It just means that when I do manage to extract myself from the house, there is a method of transport that doesn’t include a £4.90 charge each way, the bus (ok yes of course fuel costs money, I get it, but do you get me?). It’s been around 5 years since I’ve drove a car that I’ve managed to call my own. The last was the Citroen C4 I think. Now I’ve joined the Mazda family. It’s taken me some time to become comfortable with knowing there’s a car outside that’s not going to disappear at the end of a week of hire! It’s taken me awhile to get used to driving again too. – This all against the odds that the year prior has dealt to me.
Further back in 2024 I started the process of appealing the decision made in February by the.. associated agencies that have things to do with receiving benefits that I have been deemed to be entitled to. Benefits which it took me some considerable time to realise I was entitled to and required. These stopped in February 2024 and this in itself made the rest of the year much harder than it needed to be. Yet still I have somehow achieved what I’ve been able to in the year passed. It is very much down to good friends that I’ve made it through in any kinda positive state. I can’t really discuss this topic any further as it is still ongoing and current. Hopes of a resolution before the end of the year have long since been dashed. So that one we take on and battle on in to 2025.
Looking towards the future somewhat to finish off now, 2025, has a ring to it that 2024 didn’t. As of right now, there are one or two events I know I have to look forward to, but there are still issues overhanging which will have to be dealt with. I know that and I bloody well feel them, but there is something that I can’t help but seem to look forward to, and that is getting a little bit more time to myself, to work on some projects that perhaps I have neglected in the past. Projects that over the years I’ve refined again and again to get to the point of them.. in 2025, I hope very much to find their points and bring them together with new ideas to create something new. Something to call my own. Perhaps.
Oh my god, it wasn’t all negative.. I know – Feels weird right?!
